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~ Luck ~

2011-10-21T02:37:00.000-07:00

Luck is good fortune which occurs beyond one’s control, without regard to one’s will, intention, or desired result.

Why am I talking about “Luck”?

It all started on September 22, 2011 where my car skidded on highway. You must shout out loud that I must be driven too fast. Yes, I did.

September 24, 2011 – my daughter came up with high fever. The fever has lasted for 4 days. She was admitted to hospital on September 27, 2011 and diagnosed with “Dengue”. It was worrying as she was transfer to ICU (Intensive care unit) when her Platte kept dropping. She discharged from hospital on September 30, 2011.

October 2, 2011 – 1 day reunited as family, happy family and here we have my son admitted to hospital, diagnosed with “appendicitis”. Operation needed, removed and a little complication as it’s burst before the surgery. He was discharged from hospital on Oct 7, 2011.

My daughter was absent from school under the advice of doctor. She was back to school on October 23, 2011 (Monday). On October 25, 2011 (Wednesday), she was knocked hard on her forehead, as her Bus Drive collided with oncoming car. I nearly fainted when my husband called me in office.

Same day, neighbour hit my car which was driven by my son.

Someone told us that we are in such a bad luck, the things and environment has changed so much and the “foong sui” is changing around us too.

Don’t you see? I am blessed and so lucky!

My car skidded, god answered to my prayers, it stopped the minutes I shouted STOP.

My daughter has “dengue” and she went through without any complication.

My son has his appendicitis removed in October month, not November because he will be having his SPM examination then.

My daughter’s car accident was a minor, one of her friend lost her tooth.

My son’s car hit and our car does not show any scratches but the car that hit us, the bumper drop off.

I am so LUCKY …..

Better Life ....

2011-01-22T07:14:00.000-08:00

The Best of everything ... if possible.. !!

Everyone wants and deserves a better life. What do you have to do to develop more self-confidence, better self-esteem and greater internal motivation to be the best? It all starts with how you think.

I was once told to create a dream which will helps you to improve in your life. My dreams ... living in better life than what currently have. Not only dream, you have to engage your heart, mind, body and spirit in everything you do and find a higher level of satisfaction, joy and creativity. I have never understand what all these crabs about, really, I don't have a clue.

Do you ever have a feeling that you are drifting through life, and not going where you want to go?

How am I suppose to discover my real purpose in life? Was it measure by my job, my daily responsibilities or my long term goals?

None of the above really matters now. My precious, my goals, my achievements will be my 4 lovely, wonderful children .....

I am Back

2010-12-20T02:44:00.000-08:00

I am back..!! It has been 2 years since my last post ... mind kind of blank .... need inspiration ....

Most wanted MAN

2008-11-20T23:38:00.000-08:00

Who is he?

Does he live in earth?
Is he handsome?
Is he smart?
Is he a gentleman?
Is he famous?
Is he an angel?
Will he go to heaven?
Can you introduce me to him?

..... yet to be finished... to be continued...

50th Anniversary

2008-11-20T23:23:00.001-08:00

Dont we want this moment too?

Lets us all do a simple calculation, assuming we have got married at the age of 28 years old.

And this married has to last for at least 50 years right, than we will be 78 years old by than.

Again, health has to take into consideration and it also take 2 of us.

Ain't they lovely couple!!

......... Cheers!!

2007-09-18T19:00:00.000-07:00

PART 2 ....

"My Best Friend" has done some "check and balance"......
kept all history sms....

21/02/2007 (Wednesday) - This is the 2nd time we ML. We went back to your house during lunch time to ML. Damn pain also, even pain than 1st time. Know you very mang zhang because you cant go in smooth and i not enough wet, so really really damn pain.

SMS received from the "Boyfriend"
Quote: What made u think if I dont answer 1 time if u call 100 times I will answer? Plz use common sense, this is what what I taught you? Anyway, I dont to blow things out of propotion because of your action. Yes, we work thins out together, this is what I told u u always aggravate me. Thanks for your concern, would be good if you put, some common sense into it.

The problem is not where i went this afternoon. U got your focus wrong. You should focus on that your constant phoning upset me so much when I told u zillion time dont kept on phoning, drop me a msg. This is what is important. Im disapointed u still thinking where I went rather than know what u have done wrong and upset me so much. THINK OF THE IMPORTANT THING AND DONT SIDE TRACK!!!

Unquote

24/02/2007 (Saturday) - Angry at you because you meet up with “My Best Friend” everyday during CNY, angry until dont want to pick up your call. You feel sad and sms me to tell me that you miss me very much, feel sad and drank beer until 4am. After heard that, very sam tung because i dont want you to drink too much beer.

25/02/2007 (Sunday) - We went to 1st Station after you had dinner with “My Best Friend”. But half way, she wants to give you suprise and turn back to look for you. I am like soh poh sit there alone and wait until you come back. After you came back, you tell me that she wants to come again, on that time, i am really really going to be mad, and cried loudly in your car. Very "sat yi tai". This is the 1st time i cried gao gao infront of you.

SMS received from the "Boyfriend"
Quote: Dar, on the phone. Call u back shortly. Unquote.

Quote: Ok dar. Just woke up also. My Ee E is here. I also pee a lot lah, hah. Until quite tired also. Muaks. Love u. Let me knoe when u r coming. Have a good day. Unquote.

04/03/2007 (Sunday) - Chap Goh Mei (Chinese Valentine Day) Bought "Wo Lai Ye" Yok Gan to visit your mum. But “My Best Friend” wants to look for you again. We went 1st station, Pandan Indah. Avoid you to drink too much, i help you to drink 1 beer, after that abit blur. And dont know why so dai dam, ML with you at Hotel Cheras. Actually want to give you as chinese valentine present loh.11/03/2007 (Sunday) - Sent you 1 Ecard with Smiley Kiss. Hope you HAPPY ALWAYS, SMILE ALWAYS and BE GOOD MOOD ALWAYS. Dont know you still keep it or not. When you not in good mood or not happy, YOU CAN OPEN MY ECARD AND READ IT AGAIN, THEN YOU WILL BE HAPPY.

SMS received from the "Boyfriend"
Quote:U really disapoint me alot. We just spoken of the same situation last week & u said u understand. A VERY SIMPLE TEST LIKE TODAY U FAILED MISERABLY. I was with Quah.
All is fine. Im safely home. I'll try to explain it to u tomorrow as do not want to spoil my time when mum is around. Im trying not to use harsh words on u today, although u really deserve so much of it. We talk tomorrow. Love u.
Unquote

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Comments....

2007-09-18T18:06:00.000-07:00

PART 1 ..........

HELP me to help my BEST friend...!!!

FEELINGS

Something that had happened and another one had endorsed it.
That’s FACTS! ........... What about is feeling?

Feeling is something to do with emotion, and emotion could never be subjective. It could also due to weather, people or things around you.

That is why one always say, never judge someone based on your feeling.

NOW, how can you always tell me your feelings are facts?

My best friend had a broken heart ... and fighting hard to heel it....!!
It was something to do with relationship - "feelings...emotion". The most paintful and difficult thing to deal with.

Firstly should I agreed on these:

JEALOSY IS A FORM OF FEAR

There are people jealous of you. Because they think you are happier, more in control and more talented than they are.

They may become critical about you or push you away by withdrawing or ignoring you. Either way, it’s a sign that they feel vulnerable and threatened and instead of letting it show they want to bring you down a peg or two.

Think about how sad it would be if this person is your "Boyfriend"?

Yeah, he wants a successful girlfriend but not if it makes him feel completely overshadowed.
He may also start to feel left out if your success is taking you away from him.

Your boyfriend hasn’t congratulated you about your success.
He hasn’t bothered to tell any of his friends about it and grunts at you whenever you get excited and talk about your big news.
He’s also started to get jealous about how much time you are devoting to improving your particular skill.

Of course, she has tried everything she could think of. She has kept reminding him how much he has helped her success by being supportive and providing a sounding board for her.
Also, she has thank him in front of other people.

She even always put herself in his shoe.. meaning think as a "male".
Knowing there is plenty of social pressure on him to prove that he can be a provider.
Enusring he would not feel emasculated and inferior, simple she is doing a better job that he is on his career kudos!!

By pleasing him most of the time...
By being a "Yes" women most of the time...
By no saying much in front of his friends.....
By acting dump most of the time.........

Were all these helping her?
Do all these making her desperate?

But.. sad.. very sad. After days... months... years of doing these.
Unpleasant things still happened.

Her boyfriend resents it if she have to work back.
He complains that she talk about work too much at home and in front of his friends.
He accuses her of thinking she is better than he is just because she's having a bigger title in the company now.

THE CONCLUSION OF ALL HIS BEHAVIOUR .... SIMPLE ... HE HAS AN AFFAIR!!

A very sickening letter (with date and events) was email to my girlfriend.
Contents was all true but nothing but the TRUE.

But the wonderful boyfriend ... instead of apologise and explain for what he has done.
He came out with three simple words..

"I have been victimised. You have to be supportive, understanding and Trust me!"

... hahah... except less out the words... "Now go to sleep, doggie"

Well.. Shouldn't it be a long conversation, discussion and meeting??
It about the contents of the letter??
Why cant he sees it?
No... he just avoiding...
He was a great actor... AWARD.. should be given to him!!

Yeah.. there goes the other 2 awards for the co-actress too!!

Is she going to give up this relationship?

Feeling... emotion.. love.. all mixed I think.

But I believe.. one thing could help her on this.

THE CONSCIOUS AND SUBCONSCIOUS MIND

Use the power of your subconscious!
It inspires you and guides you.
It calls up vivid scenes from the storehouse of memory.

Your subconscious mind controls all the vital processes functions of your body.
It knows the answer to all problems.

Speak to your subconscious mind.
Take over in peace, harmony, and divine order.
You will find that all the functions of your body will become normal again.

You may be very happy all these while.. for years but have you ever ask your subconscious mind ...

"Are you happy too?"

Hey... darling.. May God be with you in everything you do!

You can do it!!

This was the email ..... from the "girl" to "My best friend"....

I HAVE CHANGED THE ORIGINAL NAME TO "MY BEST FRIEND" to protect her image.

Hi my sweetheart

How are you there? Long time never write long email to you loh. You miss my long email?

Summary of OUR LIFE

Year 2006

30/11/2006 (Thursday) - As per your requested, i sent a love letter to you, because you complaint that i sent too much of "jiu gao" letter to you. Now think back, feel that i am abit cheap, how come write a love letter to you. At first, you tried to call me few times when you know i got feel to you, but i dont want to pick up your call because i feel gam gai and "fish", and think that if you got no feel to me and our friendship will finish. I really scared that. Dont know is it you dont want to make me sad or let me easy to "lok toi", you sms and tell me that you also got feel to me, i really dont know is it true or not. On that day around 12am something, you called me again, finally i picked up your call. We talked abit and our relationship started. And you also told me that you paid around RM500.00 to get VVIP seats for Guang Liang's Concert for me. Thanks alot. Really enjoy his concert .

The next day, when we chat, i told you that steve asked me to consider him as bf if 1 day i have broken up with my bf and he has no gf. Then you also asked me to consider you as my bf if i really broken up with my bf. Then i answered, sure you are the 1st one that i consider and will give the priority to you.

From that day onwards, we talked over the phone everynight before we going to sleep.
04/12/2006 (Monday) - 2 weeks before your birthday, it is my birthday. I really hope that you remember my birthday, hope that you are the 1st one who wish me happy birthday, buy me a birthday present, but really really really disappointed me. You forgot it. . HOPE YOU CAN REMEMBER MY BIRTHDAY EVERY YEAR AND FOREVER!!!

18/12/2006 (Monday) - 2 weeks after my birthday, it is your birthday. I bought one pair of pen as your birthday present. Hope you wont lost it, must keep it properly, and when you using it, hope you can remember me. Besides the birthday present, i gave you a "quick" birthday kiss with a pop pop tiu heart at the staircase there. Now think back, still pop pop tiu when kiss you first time. Do i cheap for giving you birthday kiss? After you finished your party, you requested for 1 more time, we went staircase again, but this time your kiss very "yok gan", scared me, then i pushed you away. But you still not enough, requested for 1 more time, i said okloh, will give you when in the lift, nobody will see that. In the end, Hon Seng be our spot light, so cant kiss in the lift. But we kiss again in your car, everytime kissing with you also pop pop tiu. This is your year 2006 birthday. HOPE YOU HAVE A NICE BIRTHDAY AND WONT FORGOT IN YOUR LIFE.

Around Early December, you went to Guang Zhou with Jeffrey Choa, Mr Ooi, and Calvin. You extended your trip there. We chat everynight. Unfortunately, you missed the flight, you sam tung your money, dont want to book hotel, want to overnight at HK Airport. But i very sam tung if you overnight at HK Airport, cant sleep well, not good for health, so online to search the hotel for you, finally get Novotel Citygate Hotel for you, it costs about HKD 1300.00. Know you really really sam tung your money, but nevermind lah, as i said money can earn back one.

One day when i work afternoon shift, you send me back on that day. We talked while on our way, then you suddenly cry, scared me, know you very stress for your business and want to earn alot of money to let your mum "hiong fook". But sometimes cant force yourself too often, we had a very very long KISS that night and sure both of our heart pop pop tiu, until you said you cannot tahan, then only we stop.

Some other days, you parked your car at the narrow alley there, we KISS inside the car. The 3rd time we KISS, your hand already naughty, our heart still pop pop tiu.
After that, we go straight to your house and LLSS on your bed, still with pop pop tiu heart.

25/12/2006 (Monday) - I went Singapore, received a sms from you, to say that "MERRY CHRISTMAS AND HAPPY NEW YEAR".

Year 2007

Early February you had a big arguement with “My Best Friend”, it is regarding Feon. Both of you "lang jin" for few weeks, so you have more time to spend to me.

10/02/2007 (Saturday) - Your mum went Genting to watch Cliff Richard, i went to your house, we KISS, LLSS, and finally you ngang ngang lai ML. Damn pain, pain for few days.

14/02/2007 (Wednesday) - Received ur sms that you want to have breakfast with me and fetch me to office. Very glad to hear that, really really happy. And i received a bouquet of flower from you as a valentine present. I also sent you a valentine ecard. Hope you still keep it, keep it for whole life. But we argued abit because you sent her a bouquet of flower also even you had very big arguement with her. . On that day you had japanese food with her also, then both of you together again.

During Chinese New Year, both of you meet up everyday (about 11 days) and you stay overnight at her place also. This is the 1st CNY i cried the most, and unhappy.

19/02/2007 (Monday) - During CNY, requested ANG POW from you, but until now you still dont want to give me. I really dont know why, can you please tell me the reason? Not like to compare, if “My Best Friend” ask you to buy anything for her, sure you will buy for her loh.

21/02/2007 (Wednesday) - This is the 2nd time we ML. We went back to your house during lunch time to ML. Damn pain also, even pain than 1st time. Know you very mang zhang because you cant go in smooth and i not enough wet, so really really damn pain.

24/02/2007 (Saturday) - Angry at you because you meet up with “My Best Friend” everyday during CNY, angry until dont want to pick up your call. You feel sad and sms me to tell me that you miss me very much, feel sad and drank beer until 4am. After heard that, very sam tung because i dont want you to drink too much beer.

25/02/2007 (Sunday) - We went to 1st Station after you had dinner with “My Best Friend”. But half way, she wants to give you suprise and turn back to look for you. I am like soh poh sit there alone and wait until you come back. After you came back, you tell me that she wants to come again, on that time, i am really really going to be mad, and cried loudly in your car. Very "sat yi tai". This is the 1st time i cried gao gao infront of you.

04/03/2007 (Sunday) - Chap Goh Mei (Chinese Valentine Day) Bought "Wo Lai Ye" Yok Gan to visit your mum. But “My Best Friend” wants to look for you again. We went 1st station, Pandan Indah. Avoid you to drink too much, i help you to drink 1 beer, after that abit blur. And dont know why so dai dam, ML with you at Hotel Cheras. Actually want to give you as chinese valentine present loh.

11/03/2007 (Sunday) - Sent you 1 Ecard with Smiley Kiss. Hope you HAPPY ALWAYS, SMILE ALWAYS and BE GOOD MOOD ALWAYS. Dont know you still keep it or not. When you not in good mood or not happy, YOU CAN OPEN MY ECARD AND READ IT AGAIN, THEN YOU WILL BE HAPPY.

Went Bangkok end of March, bought you a T-Shirt. HOPE YOU LIKE IT, AND HOPE THAT YOU WONT THROW IT ONE SIDE AND LOST IT!!! Like the TIE i gave you as a birthday present, know that you dare not wear it because you love “My Best Friend” so much, you wont wear it. SIGH . Frankly, really really sad.
30/03/2007 (Friday) - My parents went back to Kuantan for Qing Ming. You took leave and came to my house around 10 something. This is the 4th time we ML, even i am period on that time. Now think back, feel that dirty and geli, but you still want it. After that, we ate Mcdonalds at Project, then you sent me to office. While on the way to office, angry at you because know that you want to stay overnight at her place. We shouted and screamed very very very loud in your car, until now my cough still not recover yet. I cried gao gao on that day also.Angry until i banged your car's door also.

On that day around 5-6pm, i begged you to meet up with me, but you reject me. After that, called you and talked over the phone until my whole body numb. I am very very suffer at that time, you know?

01/04/2007 (Sunday) - Work afternoon shift, you came office to fetch me go back to my house. You stayed overnight at my place. We share 1 bed, and we ML in the midnight. This is the 5th time we ML.

13/04/2007 (Friday) - Sent you another Ecard, to thank whatever you have done to me, thank you very much and appreciate it very much. And said that: "I am here for you whenever you need me."

16/04/2007 (Monday) - You want to go back to take your sport shoes, so you come to fetch me with Quah during lunch time. I bought a ITECH HANDSFREE for you, and put it in your car secretly while on the way to office. HOPE YOU REMEMBER ME FOREVER EVER WHEN YOU USE IT. HOPE YOU WONT SPOILT IT. EVEN SPOILT, CAN YOU KEEP IT AS A SOUVENIR? THANKS. I know you feel very happy, suprised and touching while you see i passed you the handsfree. Whereever i go or travel, i wont forgot to buy you something because i love you, want to buy something for you as a souvenir.

13/04/2007 (Friday) - I work afternoon shift. You promised me to send me back after work. But you asked “My Best Friend” to join you and have a drink at LC. I sms you not to be "yin ngan" infront of me. I know she purposely hold your hand, and purposely want you to KISS her infront of me . THAT FEELINGS REALLY REALLY SUSAH TO TAHAN AND DAMN BAD, you know? CAN I BEG YOU AH AND PLEASE PROMISED ME, NO MORE NEXT TIME,OK?CAN PROMISED ME? . Do you remember that, i told you before if next time i be your gf, i want you to give me FRENCH KISS infront of her, but now . Dont think my wish can come true.

22/04/2007 (Sunday) - We went out to pak toh. After that, went to your house, KISS, LLSS and ML.

23/04/2007 (Monday) - Sent you Ecard, to thank you spending a wonderful and great sunday to me, feel happy and appreciate it very much.

24/04/2007 (Tuesday) - You MC that day. I applied half day to accompany you and take care of you. I help you to "guat sa" and massage. We take a nap together.

End of April 2007, We can spend more time with each other because “My Best Friend” went to Macau. Every weekend we went out to pak toh.

26/04/2007 (Thursday) - We had "siu ngo" with Quah and Alice. On that day, you sent me back. I am not happy on that day, because think want to break up with Jonathan. We talked alot in the car, you console me, let me lay on your shoulder. Feel touching. This is the 2nd time you cried infront of me. In the car, I slap you also, hehe, thanks for letting me to slap you. Hope got chance to slap you again. After that, we went HAPPY KAFE to have a drink.

27/04/2007 (Friday) - I went to your house together with you because you said your mum cook soup for you. That night i made you very very high and suffer but on that time i cant ML with you because my period came. Haha. Your look very nice at that time. Really enjoy it very much.
02/05/2007 (Wednesday) - We went to THE SHIP to have our dinner. This is the only one candle light dinner we had. .

04/05/2007 (Friday) - My parents want to meet up with the person i love. I know you not willing to go, finally you went, but unfortunately “My Best Friend” made you angry, shit! I know until now you still not shuang my dad, but please loh he is my dad, he loves and sayang me very very much, can you please threw out those unhappy thing, respect my parents as i respect your mum. I remember that sometimes i angry at you, but when i went to your house i wont show black face to your mum, do you know why? BECAUSE I LOVE YOU, I HAVE TO RESPECT AND LOVE YOUR FAMILY MEMBERS ALSO, CANT BECAUSE I AM NOT HAPPY AND ANGRY THEN I SHOW BLACK FACE TO THEM. Even i am angry at that time but i still talk to your mum nicely, pui your mum "king gai", wont show her black face, wont let her "nan zou". I MUST LOVE YOUR MUM AS YOU LOVE YOUR MUM LOH. So, PLEASE LOH, JUST RESPECT MY FAMILY MEMBERS AND DONT ANGRY THEM ANYMORE. CAN YOU DO THAT? I REALLY REALLY HOPE YOU CAN DO THAT. THREW OUT THOSE UNHAPPY THINGS. THANKS.

05/05/2007 (Saturday) - 17:55 flight to Hong Kong. And that day your lovely girlfriend “My Best Friend” came back. Know that you missed her very very much. On that day you can see her, can sleep with her. No need to miss her anymore.

While i am in Hong Kong, i dont know whether you miss me or not. I just know i missed you very very very much. I really disappointed that you dont want to send me report loh. i checked my email everyday, hope can see Alan Lee's email, but everytime also very very disappointed. . And i know when i am not here, you can go to stay overnight at her place as much as you can. . Frankly, when i know you stayed at her place for 1 week i really really very sam tung.

I bought you Winnie the Pooh Magic Towel from Disneyland, HOPE YOU REALLY LIKE IT. DID YOU THROW IT ONE SIDE OR DONT KNOW WHERE YOU PUT ALREADY? HOPE YOU WONT LOST IT, MUST KEEP IT PROPERLY.

19/05/2007 (Saturday) - Came back from Hong Kong, want to call you at first time, but know that you are at her place, until cannot tahan only use my house phone to call. But when you picked up the call, you feel very "chun hei", and i think you are ML with her at that time. My heart broken, very very pain and sam tung. Cried whole night while sleep.

20/05/2007 (Sunday) - The next day want to get answer from you already, i cant sleep. Cried from 1am until 5am, heart really really pain and very very ng seh tak because i still love you very much, but i dont know you still love me or not, maybe you feel that you just love her and dont love me anymore. I am very very scared because i can guess who you want to be with. Our relationship almost finished. I really really ng seh tak.

21/05/2007 (Monday) - I went back to office, had lunch with you and Quah at Ton Chan. Ate my favourite Mabo Ramen. You accompany me to see doctor. After that, we went staircase and i wanted to get answer from you. Very sam tung that you tell me you want to be with her and not me. . My heart broken again. I cried gao gao at staircase there when you went meeting with Calvin & Catherine. AM I REALLY "BEI NG XIONG" HER? I REALLY CHA UNTIL YOU DONT WANT TO BE WITH ME? I know i really cant help you for your call center stuffs, but she can. I remembered that you tell me always, cannot compare like that, but unfortunately, when you think who you want to be with, you compare me with her, since she can helps you alot. Everytime when i asked you, you just console me only and said that cannot compare like that. But in the end, you compare me and her. . At that night, suprised to receive your sms. Content of the sms: Hi Sweetheart, how r u there? After drinking with KK and Quah. I know i am not suppose to msg u, but i am missing u so much here until i cant tahan. I really love you very much, just we have no fate. I hated it very much when thinking about it. I cried also, but u didn't know. You have good rest there. I love u and miss u alot.
Until now, my heart still pain, i cried everynight when i sleep. Do you know really really suffer. I do not know what's your feeling. Can you tell me frankly, what is your feelings now?

Those few days, you told me that after i came back, you got no mood to stay overnight at her place already, at first i really feel happy when i know that. In my opinion, you can tahan few days only, after that you will go to her place and overnight there. .

When i broken up with Jonathan, i really want to talk to you at the first time. But know that you overnight at her place, so never disturb you. Just can keep in my heart. I hope you are by my side, can share my sadness, console me, tam me like last time. But think you enjoy ur weekend at her place loh. Sorry this is my opinion. I called you on sunday, you said not convenient to talk, will return my call. But i wait until 1am, you never call me. I dont know why? Can you tell me the reason? Is it you "him" me fan? Dont want to talk to me anymore? Want to have distance between you and me? Dont want to close to me? Sometimes, i also think i am cheap, you dont want to chat with me first, dont want to sms me, dont want to talk to me, but i still "zhong go tou" to your side. AM I CHEAP? CAN TELL ME FRANKLY? JUST ASKING, THIS EMAIL NO FUI HEI WORDS.

Can you please keep this email for your whole life and forever? Pleast dont delete it. If i need it, can i ask you to forward to me? Spent alot of time to recall my memories and write it, hope you like it. MY SWEETHEART.

--- THE END ---

My friend was so confuse, hurt and really have no ideas what she should re-act??

Would you care to suggest?

Funny Photo on Chinese New Year ...

2007-02-15T01:49:00.000-08:00

Enjoy these photos... taken during Chinese New Year ...

(to be published soon.......)

Chinese New Year

2007-02-14T23:35:00.000-08:00

May God bless us all ..........

Huray... Chinese New Year round the corner!!

I recalled the same festival but last year.. I was in really bad luck. My whole family was admitted to SJMC Hospital for Dengue.

One after another.. total 3 admitted and 2 high fever at home. I was the only one that was standing strong, dengue free. I really stress out and nearly drop dead too.

Praise the Lord for answered all my prayers.

Whisky

2006-10-23T09:31:00.000-07:00

Johnnie Walker

How often do you drink whisky?
Which would be you most prefer brand in whisky?
If you were to drink Johnnie Walker, which will be the label do you drink?
... Black, Green, Gold or Blue....

Well.... I am just begining to experience what my colleagues had experienced.
Should I say...

Excitement, monotonous or satisfaction?

Hmmm... it could be all of it.

Anyway.. still can't commend much though as it was still very early. I am only 6 days old...

But I sure could cry out loud... very sore in my throat..

Hahaha.....

威士忌酒

我开始体验到我的同事..经验或感受. Guinness project...

兴奋, 单调或满意?

可能是一切...仍然还早... 称赞

但肯定, 我的 ... throat 非常疼痛 ..!!

Emotion

2006-10-12T02:32:00.000-07:00

How to control emotion?

I always thought that I was tough and strong.

I do not understand why sometime I just had to break down and cried.

The tears in my eyes just uncontrollable and all I wish was that it won't happen again in future!!

........ it happened before and it happend again two days ago .....

It started two weeks ago. I have been working in office from Monday to Friday. On weekend, I had to do labourer work, eg. paintings, cleaning, carpenter, etc .. at my so called new home. My health wasn't good and I was on medication.

Worst, I have been having sleepless night for 3 days.

That morning, I have parked my car at the wrong side of the road. I have blocked one of the car from coming out. He scolded me "You have no brain" so so many times. I was shocked and kept asking why does he had to be so angry.

Maybe I was shocked and ran out of words to fight back. I quickly drove off when he threatened to hit my car.

I told my colleagues the minutes I step into the office. Right after I have finished my story. My tears just poured out like water pipe....

Gosh... unbelieveable.. I then felt so embarrassed for what I have done.

I understand man would not fall into this kind of situation. They are strong and "thick skin" perhaps. No offence..

This kind of emotion was so difficult to describe. Should I call it "Stress" and "Sad"?

I am confused with myself.

我总是认为, 我是坚韧和坚强. 我错了!

我不了解为什么我有时 - 哭。

我无法控制我眼睛的泪花。。。我所愿望是, 它再不会发生今后!!

............ 以前发生, 现在它再重覆二天前 ................

我在办公室工作从星期一到星期五。在周末, 我必须做额外工作, 即绘画, 清洁, 木匠, 等。为我所谓的新家。最近我的健康不是很好，并且我是在吃药。

最坏, 我已经失眠了3 天。

那个早晨, 我停我的汽车在路旁。未想道, 我阻拦了一辆汽车的出口。他责骂了我"您没有脑子" 很多,很多次。我被 - 震动, 问他为什么他必须那麽恼怒。

我立刻驾开我的汽车, 因为他威胁击中我的汽车.

当我达到办公室时, 我一五一十的告诉同事们. 在这时,我不知道为什么我的眼睛的泪象开了水管.... 不停的流.

好害羞..非常难受!!

男性不哭, 因为他们是男性, "笑"... 可能他们的皮肤浓厚!!

这种感受很难解释.. 我叫它 "精神紧张" 或 "精神压力".

不了解为什么我使用这方法来表现我自己, "可疑"!!

What is Important in Life?

2006-10-10T23:28:00.000-07:00

Have you ever think about this?

What would be the most important thing in our Life?

Does food, enjoyment, love, flirt or money, etc ... play a important role?

If you ask me, I would like to choose Money, enjoyment and food.

But again, this would be very individual.

I believed everyone needs depend on age.

Our needs changes every year.

Everytime we changes our working environment or standard of living.

在我们的生活当中最重要的是什么？

吃,玩，爱,风流或金钱等。。

我选择钱，玩和吃。。哈哈哈。。你呢？

我相信大家的需要 depend on 年龄。

每当我们改变我们的工作环境或生活水准, 我们的需要会是不同的。

Measurement

2006-10-03T00:56:00.000-07:00

October 3, 2006

Is measurement very important?

You may comfortably answer yes if you refer to the picture above.

But in terms of life, you may have second thought. You would probably have many doubts and questions on : please elaborate.

When we say measure a friend, simple means judge a friend.
When we say measure my future, means focusing my future.
When we say measure the distance from point A to point B, means planning.

Everyone measure something in life ......

Very important to learn that Each measurement needed different instruments.
Like picture above, you need the knife or a weighing machine with kilograms.
So on and so on....

Cheers!! Let's start measuring....

Laughter is the BEST medicine

2006-09-20T04:09:00.000-07:00

September 20, 2006

Do you know when we laugh heartily, it activates the cardio-vascular system,
heart rate & blood pressure increase,
then the arteries dilate,
causing blood pressure contractions of the chest muscles,
diaphragm and abdomen increase
the blood flow into our internal organs, and forced respiration.

The act of laughing may also release brain endorphins,
creating the feeling of euphoria,
reducing sensitivity to pain
boosting endurance and pleasurable sensations.

哈。。哈。。哈。。

从今天起，我尝试笑口常开。。但是同事们请不要笑我哦！

实际上，我真的感到很累。。
最近，为了搬房子。。油漆，清洁，跑来跑去。。
而且还要买最便宜和美丽。。沙发。。怎麽可能呢？

如果我看到。。美。。一定是贵。。哎哟!

没关系, 至少现在我尝笑。。笑。。笑。。哈。。哈。。哈。。哈

疯。。精神病！

TOOTH

2006-09-11T02:27:00.000-07:00

September 10, 2006 (Sunday)

Why is it that when a Baby without teeth, they still look CUTE and ADORABLE??

And why my grandpap and grandmam without teeth, they looks as CUTE as a baby??

But why the adult without teeth, they look miserable and ugly!!

If someone had a swollen and pain tooth, will Ice-Cream help to relieve??

为什么当一个婴孩没有牙, 他们仍然那麽逗人喜爱和可爱??

为什么我的 grandpap 和 grandmam 没有牙, 他们一样逗人喜爱像个婴孩??

但为什么成人没有牙, 他们看起来好傻和丑恶!!

如果你有牙痛, 冰淇能帮助解除牙痛吗?

My cheek was swollen on the left side.. consulted a dentist. Sob..sob.. Dentist gave a antibiotic for 5 days. Consume 2 tablets - 4 times a day.

很痛，很痛。。。我的牙。。阿。。

陌生人

2006-08-29T02:08:00.000-07:00

昨天，约了朋友在 klcc 吃 KFC!

庆祝她的生日。。。

在路途回我的车时，有一个陌生人。整身穿黑色，突然往我这里走过来。
我认为他非常可疑。。

他问 “小姐, 请问您。。。”

我非常担心，我往前走得很快，速度非常快，没有转头看。哎呀。。

幸运我快，快，快，快，快。。。

。。安全到回 !!

同事们, 小心回家。

Barbequed Pork

2006-08-28T04:06:00.000-07:00

August 27, 2006 (Sunday)

叮叮叮。。。准备好了！！

见大家享用的那么很愉快。。。

非常高兴

Char Siew Pau

2006-08-26T04:03:00.000-07:00

August 26, 2006 (Saturday)

LUNCH - One of my colleague suggested Char Siew Pau for a change. Excellent idea!
I bought it from an ordinary chinese restaurant and it was ordinary 'Pau'. Nothing really special but it was feeling.

In the morning, I was introduced to listen to a recorded complaint call. It was from a call centre. The duration of the call was about 2 hours. Unbelievable!!

In this particular conversation, there were abusive language used. Very unprofessional and very rediculous!!

After listening to the call, I felt that my head spinning and heavily bob down with unsatisfaction, anger, revenge, doubts and most of all, I felt like yelling abusive language too!!

.... take a break ... breath in and count to 10... 1, 2, 3, 4, 5, 6, 7, 8, 9 , 10..

hooo.. better already.

All I could comment on the Recorded Complaint - It will never happen here!!

The duration of complaint call should not have last for more than 20 minutes.

Have they ever think about how productively they are?
(more that 3 people spent 2 hours on the call)

What's for LUNCH

2006-08-25T03:53:00.000-07:00

I love bread.

I started falling deeply in love with BREAD not long ago. About 5 to 6 years ago. As I have mentioned earlier, the process of making bread is a technology!

Three months ago, I was introduced to 'blog' by my son, I have no clue what to write.
What am I suppose to write? My personal life? My opinion? or Some of the juicy gossip??

And I decided to write something I love most - to eat. That's BREAD. That was my kick off !

Well, blogging is a powerful tools of communication. But it has to serve well with good purpose.
I know my purpose.. of course, I just want to express and share my happiness and unhappiness with the world. It doesn't matter whether you praise or comment with criticism.

I have been reading lots of blogs lately and I found it very interesting though. They were talented people. Creative and has brilliant ideas.

Everyone expressed themselves so well! I am kind of enjoy it now except I wish I could draw my own picture 'Bread' instead of photo!!

I have a couple of colleagues who were artist. I am in the term of negotiating with them - "teach me how to draw bread for FREE". Haha....

For a change.. I will have biscuit for lunch tomorrow!

OVER POWERING

2006-08-23T20:26:00.000-07:00

Many relationships fail because one party tries to overpower another, or demands too much. People in love tend to think that love will conquer all and their spouses will change the bad habits after marriage. Actually, this is not the case.

There is a Chinese saying which carries the meaning that "It is easier to reshape a mountain or a river than a person's character."

It is not easy to change. Thus, having high expectation on changing the spouse character will cause disappointment and unpleasantness.

It would be less painful to change ourselves and lower our expectations.

For the past few weeks, I have been feeling lousy. Every morning, I felt that I have been waking up on the wrong side of the bed. I felt like screaming loud. I had even thought of putting on a "angry" face so as I could scare everyone that approaches me.

Don't get me wrong, I am not frastruated with my spouse. It was me that I am angry with. What have I done in my life? What have I achieve so far? I had always had a goal but sometime I just felt lost.

Missing something.... still looking ..... aiyah......

标准身材

2006-08-20T23:15:00.000-07:00

上图就是我认为的 - 标准身材 -

哈哈。。哈哈还有好美的面包！

如果谁有关于面包的图片。。。请转发去我的电子邮件！

非常谢谢！！

BREATHING

2006-08-19T23:18:00.000-07:00

To Source of Your Vocal Power

To impress someone, either your boyfriend, grilfriend, business associates, etc. Your VOICE would be an important source. Your voice should be communicated with warmth, friendliness, sincerity and confidence.

How can we do it?

The source of our vocal power is Breathing. It depends on:

How deeply we inhale.
How freely we exhale impacts the sound we produce.

We often shallowed breathing and it was due to a lazy habit. Sometimes, it was the result of stress or tension. Example, when we were nervous or stressed, we may not inhale or exhale fully.

We have forgotten to use our diaphragm!!

The Diaphragm - a muscle that sits under the lungs. Some call it the body's trampoline since when we inhale and exhale. We pushed air in and out of our lungs, much like jumping on a trampoline.

If we do not use our diaphragm correctly, we will be ended up breathing shallowly, and, thus, the Voice will never has the right gasoline or fuel to make it sound pleasing to ear.

To determine if you are Breathing shallowly or from the diaphragm, you may go through the following steps...

Stand in front of the Mirror

First, place one hand on your upper chest and one hand on your diaphragm.
Feel and see your stomach moving in and out.
Very important, your shoulders should not be lifting or your chest noticeable moving.

To practise diaphragmatice Breathing,

Now, lie on the floor or your bed. You can breath from a prone position is from the diaphragm. Then, inhale for a count of 5, hold it for a count of 3, and slowly exhale through an open mouth.

Take 4 or 5 deep breaths and then start speaking on your exhaled breath.
Speak about your product or service or anything related to what you do.

Tape yourself and play it back.
Be conscious of how much breath you had to complete your thoughts.

Next stand up. Repeat the same process standing in front of the mirror.
Be conscious of how your diaphragm is moving.
Be awake of your shoulders. They should not be lifting.
After some practise attempts, start speaking on the exhaled breath.
Look for opportunities to pause and breathe, perhaps where you want to highlight a point or at the end of your thoughts.
Wise speaker always want to emphasize important ideas.

Do not wait for your voice to completely out of air. "You die!!"... just kidding.

If you were to wait until your voice has no fuel, you be will invariable starting to take shallow breaths.

There will also be lots of "um" and "ahs" as you grab a quick breath.

Again, tape yourself and notice if there is a difference between the 2 tapes.

Have fun...!!!

VOICE

2006-08-17T03:05:00.000-07:00

"How to improve on One's vocal?".

Sharing ideas and exchanging opinions:

Yesterday, one of my colleague came to me and asked me "How do I improve my voice?". "My voice is a bit to soft!"

Honestly, his voice was fine to me. But he was not satisfied because he thinks that he sounded like kid. He feels??

What is FACT?
Something that had happened and another one had endorsed it.
That's FACTS!

Who has endorsed it?

Well, this colleague of mine has the FACTS and definately he has a GOAL too!

I have been wondering and curious about this for sometime too.

The answer to it was so simple..... SING. Practise, practise.....

SINGING

You will discover the power and joy of singing & speaking in wholistic way.

You will develop a solid vocal or performance technique that will make you a powerful and beautiful singer or SPEAKER.

You will learn to identify and use the diaphragm, effective breathing, and four precise mouth positions which create an extremely effortless singing/SPEAKING experience.

Your daily communication will become more relaxed and effective.

You could develop your range, stamina, breath control, release tensions and stress patterns, with your own VOICE!

Brilliant ideas..... try it!

TRUST

2006-08-10T23:51:00.000-07:00

Trust is a very important factor for all relationships.
When trust is broken, it is the causes enmity and enmity may result in separation.

A telephone operator told me that one day she received a phone call. She answered, "Public Utilities Board" There was silence. She repeated, "PUB" There was still no answer. When she was going to cut off the line, she heard a lady's voice. "Oh, so this is PUB" Sorry, I got the number from my husband's pocket but I do not know whose number it is"

Without mutual trust, just imagine what will happen to the couple if the telephone operator answered just "hello" instead of "PUB"

Way back years ago, when I first discovered my husband cheated on me. It was so painful and I was so confused then. I wanted to do so many things... and one of it was to revenge. I wanted him to feel how I felt then.

Basically, there were no more trust. Trust need time to build up but it was so sad that it only took 5 minutes just to destroy it.

I had learned to forgive and definately not forget. Which I did. I forgave him.

Sigh... It kept coming back. Now and then.

Workshop

2006-08-10T23:12:00.000-07:00

What is teambuilding ?

To deliver the quality goods and services. Empower poeple's natural love of training and self-expression.

Experiental Learning
Emotional Intelleigence
Creative Thinking
Leadership
Customer Service
Teambuilding & Learning
Executive Retreats
Strategic Planing
Motivational Presentations
Keynote addresses

I had recently conducted a workshop on Team Building.

When a question posted as "What is the Personal Gain of Good Customer Service?"

Well, there were many answer to it. Really non of them were wrong because this was based on personal feeling and opinion. But someone had really impressed me.

"Passion, Excitement,...." Wooh... that was my fisrt responde!

I have tried to ask many question in order to understand more, well I think I did.

Passion as in ...
even though when the customers were nasty, rude and abusesive. He felt passion because he believed he had been able to be with the customer for the whole conversation. Achievement was the better word!

Excitement as in ....
there were many different kind of customer. Sometime could be 'Good' and 'Bad' customers. Life was filled with different kind of colors!

Hmmm,, It take me a while to digest.

Right! I agreed.

Confession

2006-07-30T22:23:00.000-07:00

July 31, 2006

So much about bread.

I have to confess that I have lot of frustration. I strongly believe all these were due to unfullfilled desire. Knowing the facts that the life Principle will flow through you rhythmically and harmoniously, if we were to consciously affirm ourself. Yet I still can not dissolves all conflicts.

Today, Horrible day. If I were to tell you, I felt like hell here, suffocate and headache. It must be another boring, heavy and stuffy day.

When can one tell and confirm what is happiness?

The word "happiness" were so widely define!

Was it "Love".. "Money" that matters?

I am very confused..........

2006-05-24T02:59:00.000-07:00

A stable food made from flour or meal mixed with other dry and liquid ingredients, usually combined with learning agent, and kneaded, shaped into loaves and baked.

You probably eat bread everyday, you may or may not know how to make your own bread. But have you ever thought about bread as a technology.

We could just as easily munch on dry wheat kernels instead. Or we could grind the wheat into flour, mix the flour with water and eat it as wet mush. Or we could pour the mus out on a table and dry the mush into thin brittle sheets. But we didn't do that, mainly because bread taste a lot better, and it also works a lot better for sandwishes. Bread is moist (not wet like mush or dy like dried mush), soft (unlike wheat kernel), spongy and delicious. Bread is a bio-chemical technology for turning wheat flour into something tasty!

Bread - my favourite food. Very much indeep. I could eat for breakfast, lunch and dinner. Friends described me as weird and cheat, but others concluded me as high taste in food. Bread isn't selling cheap in Malaysia. Having a sandwiches for lunch could easily cost RM7.50 for just a two slices of white bread, 1 slice of turkey ham, egg or vegetables in between. Or for a plain loaf of bread, RM2.50 from grocery store or supermarket. As for cake house or hotel, it would cost double or triple. Between RM12.00 to RM16.00 for a loaf of Rye Bran or French Loaf. Rediculous but I would still go for it.

On the other hand, eating too much bread would cause poor digestion. Constipation as well as heart burn probably. Even that, never stop me from eating and buying. Ha..ha.. Nice, delicious!!